Being Honest with God

Hey besties 🤍 today we are talking about being honest with God and the weight that comes off with that. In a world that is full of religion and unrealistic expectations, we talk about how much God wants that intimacy that comes from being honest with Him. No fancy words or extra long prayers. Just you and your heart that he desires so much. We hope this episode encourages you to go deeper with the Lord and to be yourself with Him because he’s waiting for you with big open arms! We love you!

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SPEAKER_01 0:00

Hey besties! Welcome back to Jesus and Besties. I'm Jasmine. I'm Tatiana. I am so excited to be here. Even though I feel like it has been a while since we've recorded, but it really hasn't.

SPEAKER_00 0:12

Oh my gosh, can I tell you something? Yeah. I like kind of forgot like the groove of everything. Me too. You know, like how we like you know how we schedule uploading it and then we like all that. I was like, oh yeah, we gotta do like the couple. But we're getting back, we're getting back.

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We're still getting a buffalo at the same time, but we're staying consistent. But I'm telling you guys, I still have a stuffy nose, but I'm getting better.

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Every time I think of your stuffy nose, I think of I'm back.

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And I said that like two weeks ago.

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Oh my god, that was so funny.

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Oh well, I'm so happy that you guys are here. We are so happy you guys are here.

SPEAKER_00 0:49

We're excited.

SPEAKER_01 0:50

Um, listening. Yeah, so today's episode is gonna be saying it's a good one.

SPEAKER_00 0:56

It's being honest with God.

SPEAKER_01 0:58

That is so good.

SPEAKER_00 0:59

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 1:01

So today's episode is going to be about just being honest with the Lord and how it's it's helped us and how we've actually learned to be honest with the Lord. Because I feel like at first I used to be like, oh yeah, I'm I'm being honest with the Lord, but it's like, am I really being honest with the Lord? Am I taking all of what I am bottling up into in me to him and saying, Lord, like what do you what do you want me to do with it? Like, yeah, you know, so much easier said than done.

SPEAKER_00 1:35

I know, I feel like lately too, we've been having a lot of um conversations about being honest with God. Yeah. And we've even been seeing it like there was a message a couple weeks ago at our church talking about how God truly knows everything. And I feel like we were kind of sitting there like hitting each other, like, oh, because we've been already talking about that. So I feel like that message was like a little God wink. Like it really was. You guys can keep being honest with me. Like, I love this.

SPEAKER_01 2:05

I was sobbing during that entire message.

SPEAKER_00 2:09

It was a good one, it was good.

SPEAKER_01 2:11

I was crying, like I just could not stop like crying. Um, because on the way to church that day, I was like, Lord, like I feel like I haven't really been hearing from you, like I just want to hear from you. Like, can you talk to me? And I feel like he really confirmed and spoke to me through that message the entire time, and it was just like him, like a form of him saying, like, I see you, I hear you, I care about you, and I love you, you know? And um yeah, like I just I thought that was so amazing. Like, literally, as I was driving to to church, I'm like, I just want to hear from you, and like that was just like the confirmation that was like telling me, you know, yeah, I do, I do hear you, you know.

SPEAKER_00 2:53

It was a really yeah, it was a really good message. I feel like um the pastor who was talking about it, he got a little emotional at the end, and it was just such like a wholesome message, like a big hug from God. Like because I feel like it's not talked about a lot. It's like we gotta make sure we're reading our Bible, we're praying, and it's like, yeah, but you can you don't have to sound a certain way or sound professional. It's not a corporate email.

SPEAKER_01 3:17

It's just I used to think that. I used to be like, oh me too. Dear Lord. And I'm like, wait, sometimes I'm in the car, and I'm just like, oh my gosh, like in best regards in Jesus' name. Yes, I used to be me and I'm like, Oh, I can't pray because like I have to say it a certain way. And it's like, no, you don't, like, you know, yeah. Sometimes I'm literally in the car and I'm just like talking to him. Like, I'm talking to him like if I was talking to Atiana, like, you know, and and it's funny because he hears me. Yeah, like there are mornings where I'm like, Lord, I'm not gonna do this because of this, you know, and then like something happens pertaining to that, and I'm like, wee, like that's actually crazy because you heard me. I know you did.

SPEAKER_00 3:55

Yeah, so I love it. Yeah, um, but yeah, but we have a couple stories in the Bible that point to what we're talking about. So the first one is gonna be first Samuel 1, verses 9 through 11. You wanna read it? Yes, okay.

SPEAKER_01 4:14

So 1 Samuel 1, 9 to 11 is um, so once when they had finished eating and drinking in Shiloh, Hannah stood up. Now, Eli, the priest, was sitting on his chair by the doorpost of the Lord's house. In her deep anguish, Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly, and she made a vow saying, Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant, but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head. As she kept on praying to the Lord, Eli observed her mouth. Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving, but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk and said to her, How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine. Not so, my lord, Hannah replied. I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer. I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. Do not take your servant for a wicked woman. I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief. Eli answered, Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him. She said, May your servant find favor in your eyes. Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast. I love that. Well, okay, there's a like a little bit part where it says, So, in the course of the time, Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, Because I asked the Lord for him. Um, but this story really reminds me of like being honest with the Lord.

SPEAKER_00 6:14

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 6:15

Like being honest with the Lord, and um how her honesty was not pretty. It was, you know, people even thought she was drunk. Like, it wasn't her like asking the Lord, like, pretty, pretty, please, like, not crying or anything. She was like crying and deeply troubled in her heart, like deep down that she was like expressing it in a different way that people thought that like Eli thought that she was drunk, you know.

SPEAKER_00 6:43

I know it makes me think. I'm like, how upset were you to think for someone else to think you were so drunk? But then I think, like, okay, she couldn't have a baby, and then the other wife was taunting her about it on top of it. And this was like for years, yeah. So it's but I just I'm like, how upset do you have to be? It tells me, I'm like, okay, she probably wasn't, I'm sure she was, but she probably wasn't saying a lot of words. No, because it says she was praying in her heart.

SPEAKER_01 7:11

It was or it was like in her heart, and it was just like she wasn't even being heard, nothing was coming out of her mouth, but her lips were moving, and it's like that deep like connection and talk with the Lord, asking him, like, you know, may you just give me a son, you know? Yeah, um, but it was just like also like the honesty that came, like her heart posture, yeah. Um, as well. Because like we can pray, and it really like you know how they say, like when we pray, like make sure that it's coming from the right, like heart heart posture. Um, but like she was just she didn't care how she looked, you know what I mean? She was being honest, yeah. And um, I think that's a lot of the times, like that's what the Lord wants from us. Like, not all, like, not a lot of the times, all of the times, like he wants us to be honest with him, and I feel like sometimes we can like not talk to him about certain things because we're like embarrassed, or you know what I mean? Like, don't want to tell him, but it's like he already knows, he's just waiting for you to tell him.

SPEAKER_00 8:14

Is there, yeah. Um, so do you struggle being honest with God about anything? Was that the question? Sorry, yeah, that's the question.

SPEAKER_01 8:22

Yeah, yeah. So um the question is do you because she did not struggle, she just went and she laid it out. Yeah, yeah. Um, at first I was a very like I would struggle a lot being honest with the Lord, um, like just because I felt like either shame or embarrassment. Um, but like as I got closer to the Lord, the more I learned is like, wait, he already knows like how that message last week, um, he was basically saying, like, the Lord already like knows what you're thinking, knows what you're you're gonna do, knows what you're gonna say before you even know what you're gonna say. Like, he already knows everything that goes on in our lives, and he does that for everybody. You know what I mean? So, like, why not just be honest? I feel like it's just like the principle of like being honest with him and like taking it to him, like truly laying it to the Lord and say, Hey, like, this is how I feel. Like, I've had even met with my like mentor before, and she's like, Sometimes, like, you have to, you know, like if you're angry, let him know. Like, you know, he's not gonna get mad at you, right? It's like, Lord, I am really mad at you right now. Like, why is this happening? Or Lord, I am feeling so sad. Like, why is this like, you know, and for me, for example, it's like my waiting season. Like, I have not had the best waiting season. Like, I've told my close friends around me, is like when I me and my ex broke up in November, like, I really thought it was gonna be like such a breeze. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, I was like, oh, this is gonna be easy, like, I'm gonna be fine, like, whatever. You know, I have my community, like, yeah. And then, like, as time went by, like, I was really struggling. I was really, really struggling, and I still struggle. Like, you can ask Hatiana, like, you know what I mean? But like, within this past month, I feel like the Lord has really been helping me on being honest with him. It's like just tell me how you feel. I already know how you feel, but tell me. Yeah, there are times in the car where I'm literally like just bawling, especially in within this past month, and I'm like, Lord, I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Like, this is how I feel, but like this walk with you is so hard. Like, I used to be ashamed to say that. So it's like, you know, but it's like it's so hard, and like it's kind of like also like I'm a little proud of it because like I can go and take matters into my own hands and like date whoever, like, you know, like whoever you want, yeah. You know, not whoever I want, but like um, just kind of go looking for my own husband. But it's like I know that like the Lord, what the Lord has for me is so much better. So at that point, I'm literally just like, okay, like just being honest, and like, Lord, like this is so hard for me. I can go my way, but I'm gonna do it your way. So yeah, it's hard.

SPEAKER_00 11:29

Yeah, I feel like I'm just now like starting to embrace like being honest with God. I just feel bad because like especially when you see things on the news and you're like, okay, there's like wars and rumors of wars and all this stuff with like the president, and I'm like, Ugh, Dairy Queen closes in 10 minutes. Like, you know that one too. Yeah, you know that one TikTok. Like, that's how I feel. So I feel like lately, but then I think, okay, this isn't doing you any good if you just bottle this up and both you and the Lord know it's there. Yeah. Um, I've even had like times where I like, especially before bed, I'll be honest with God and then like I'll have a dream. Hmm. That's good. And someone from church was saying, like, yeah, because like when you bottle things up, there's not really a lot of room for God to like download to you. So and I remember telling her, I was like, Oh my gosh, Monica, it worked, you know. So um I've been embracing it more, but also just understanding, like, we serve a really big God to where he can handle what's going on in the news and then like the little desires of your heart. Yeah. So it's it's okay. I remember my therapist was telling me this story of um or not a story, but like an example of like how do you picture like a dad and like a little girl? They're walking down the toy aisle, and what is she doing? She's probably saying, I want this, I want this, I want this, I want this, and she's a little girl. The dad's not mad at her for wanting all this stuff. It's like, well, what do you think? You know, we're in a world where it's like, I want this, I want this, I want a husband, I want a career, I want, you know. I kind of and I was resonating a lot with someone from our small group when she was saying she wanted prayer for patience because she was waiting for it to be her turn. And I was like, I was thinking in my head, I was like, she kind of articulated like what I'm feeling. Cause especially when you're just doing the same thing every day. I know I'm in a waiting season, but I'm like, Lord, like how long is this waiting season gonna go, you know? So yeah, um, I think just like I've been learning to like embrace it more. That is so good, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 13:24

Yeah, I think that's what we have to do because um I know for me, like as I've been learning, it's not been easy to just be like this is how I feel right now, you know, and like I've felt like hopeless, like you know, but then like I feel like that's not me trusting God, right? Like me feeling hopeless that like the things that like I started really thinking about like no, like the Lord, like like will not make me go through this again. You know what I mean? Like that's not like I know that he won't, like I'm confident that he won't because like he loves me too much, you know? Yeah, but like just certain things that like have happened recently. I'm like, oh my gosh, like is this like am I going backwards, Lord? And I I I start thinking, like, no, like the Lord, I don't think he would make me do that again because of how hard I was and how much I've like moved forward from it. Um but yeah, like it's so hard to trust the Lord, and this walk as a Christian can be so hard, but it's like being honest with him and like inviting him in and saying, like, Lord, like what do you you know? Because even inviting him in like will help like heal things that we didn't know needed to be healed.

SPEAKER_00 14:40

Yeah, that's good. That kind of leads into our next question. How did you learn to be honest with God? Yeah, so you kind of answered it.

SPEAKER_01 14:49

Yeah, I kind of did. Like for me, again, like there's just little things that I'm still learning and not like a hundred percent like a professional and trusting God. Yeah. But um, I learn from from like things that I've you know done or from other people from my community, and yeah, and um just like remind myself when I feel hopeless, like I really just try to like not speak it, like not speak it out loud saying like, oh I don't, you know, I feel like this or that. I like tell him and I bring it to him, but like I try not to like speak it over my life, like any just anything bad. Um but yeah, I I just for me it's just been like a learning process.

SPEAKER_00 15:32

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 15:32

To just be like, Lord, and I just like kind of like let it out. I don't even think about it. And a lot of the times when I'm being honest, it's either before bed or like in my car.

SPEAKER_00 15:43

Yeah, I feel like it's like I really feel like it's a muscle. Like, cause it can be so I mean, I don't know about anybody else, but I feel like it could be so intimidating to be honest with God. And then you know, like he knows everything, it's like, well, why do I need to but he wants to hear like your heart and stuff, but also I think like stories that we read, it's like it's very encouraging to know, like, okay, this isn't God's first time like dealing with us. There's been way worse.

SPEAKER_01 16:07

Oh yeah, like even like sometimes like randomly, I'd be like, I really like this, and I'm like, God cares about that, you know what I mean? Like and um just it like you said, it is like a muscle, it takes like time to like really like work on on um okay, well, how can I remain trusting the Lord? Like when things get hard, like how can I keep trusting the Lord? And like for me, like in my opinion, like this is a hard season for me, you know, because of like how anxious, not anxious, but like how like the desires of my heart are just so strong, but like I feel so hopeless just waiting, and like sometimes like the enemy gets a hold of my thoughts and literally like, well, what if you never get married? What if you never like what if you never get into another relationship ever again, or you never have kids, never become a mom. Like things like that have been like really um been a struggle in my season right now, and that's when I really have to like that's what I'm saying, like it's the season itself has been really been teaching me to trust God because like it is so hard not to believe like that, like those lies, you know. And I say they're lies because I am confident, like, and I believe and I'm expectant like that the Lord will like you know, fulfill like those promises and stuff and like the desires that I have in my heart. Like I just don't I I cannot not see like the Lord fulfilling that, like He will, you know, and so like but it's hard like you know I have to really rely on His trust and like really um or sorry I have to really rely on His strength Um to trust Him like Lord like I know I don't I there's times where I'm literally like I don't know what you're doing, I don't know what I'm gonna do, or I don't know like why I'm in the season that I'm in, but like I trust you, you know? Like sometimes it just takes as simple as that, like just saying like I don't know what to think right now, but I trust you.

SPEAKER_00 18:21

Yeah, it reminds me of like that that you sent me a video on Instagram that I still think of, and it was like I don't know what he said, but he was like, I hate how like or what does he say? He's like, doesn't God's plan like, isn't it like all over the map? It makes perfect sense. Like I feel like in with this season I'm in, I'm like, okay, Lord, you're like, I know you're preparing me like to be a wife, but like this makes no sense. Like what like trait or characteristic do is this gonna produce to be a wife?

SPEAKER_01 18:54

Like, I think you know what I'm saying, but I guess we'll sometimes I feel like I'm in a season of wilderness.

SPEAKER_00 18:59

I'm just like, it's like so deep, you're like, well, I don't know which way to go, so I don't have any choice to follow.

SPEAKER_01 19:07

Oh my gosh, you know, like what came to mind right now is like me in like a desert. Like a desert, you just see like a little tumbleweed, like there's just like it's quiet, you can hear the wind, like kind of whistle, and then like I'm just like looking everywhere. Like, that's kind of how I feel right now. Um don't know what the Lord, you know, but like that's kind of where it comes. Like, I don't know what I'm doing, but I do know that I'm trusting you.

SPEAKER_00 19:31

What came to my mind was when Jesus was tempted for 40 days and 40 nights. And like how you were saying earlier, like the enemy keeps telling you, like, what if you never get married?

SPEAKER_01 19:39

What if you never like those voices can be like turn this rock into bread? Loud yeah, like they do get loud. Really loud.

SPEAKER_00 19:46

I think and I've learned like we can't underestimate the enemy. He's like, uh this isn't like to give him glory, but this is just like to be aware he this kid's smart. This guy's smart. He knows the word, he knows now he knows the word because he knows how to like manipulate it. Yeah. And just remembering, like, he used to be like, he wasn't just an angel, he was an archangel. So he was like, him and God were real tight.

SPEAKER_01 20:08

Yeah. Time ago. But so that's what I'm saying. Like, it's it gets so loud, but like honestly, like sometimes when I don't even know how to respond to the enemy, I I like tell Lord, like, I don't know what you're gonna do right now, like I don't know what's next, but like I trust you, and it's like so hard. Like a lot of people are gonna be like, okay, girl, like you're in your waiting season, but like for me, it it's okay, like when things like it's okay to feel this way in this season. Um, and like I I mean it's been a hard season for me if I'm being honest, you know what I mean? Like that's what it is, but um, like I just you gotta just remain like the way that I think of it is like you have to keep your eyes on him. Yeah. And like no matter what, I saw something saying, like, you may question sometimes like like why other people have found their like godly kingdom, I mean spout their kingdom spouse, and then um, but like not you, but like you know, is it because I have to be closer to the Lord? And it's like, no, you know, like it's just not your time yet. Like I always thought that, yeah, yeah, but it's just like no, like obviously, like you could still like keep your eyes on him, of course. Right, but it's it's tough, like it's tough the trusting part sometimes.

SPEAKER_00 21:26

Yeah, especially I think of that verse, um, his ways are so much higher than ours. So it's like, I don't even know what you're doing, and you just throw your hands up and do things like that that he does he knows best. Yeah. So okay, let's read John 11, verse 28 through 35. John This is the story of John 11. Raising, yeah, when Lazarus was raised. The par um with his sister. Okay. So then she returned to Mary. She called Mary aside from the mourners and told her the teacher is here and wants to see you. So Mary immediately went to him. Jesus had stayed outside the village at the place where Martha met him. When the people who were at the house consoling Mary saw her leave so hastily, they assumed she was going to Lazarus' grave to weep. So she followed, so they followed her there. When Mary arrived and saw Jesus, she fell at his feet and said, Lord, if only you had been here, my brother would not have died. When Jesus saw her weeping and saw the other people wailing with her, a deep anger welled up within him, and he was deeply troubled. Where have you put him? They asked him. Then they told him, Lord, come and see. Then Jesus wept. And then after that, he raises him. But um what stands out to me in the story is that she was basically telling Lord, like, you should have done it like this. Like that's how it comes across to me. And he didn't like condemn her or say, Well, you know what? I was gonna come raise your brother, but now you know what? I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna leave. He's still like he just asked, he's like, Where is he?

SPEAKER_01 23:14

Yeah. Cause I mean and wherein it says like Jesus wept, it's like he feels that compassion.

SPEAKER_00 23:21

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 23:22

Like he feels what we feel, and I feel like that took a long time for me to like understand. It's like basically saying, Well, like, okay, I could be crying because I have this desire, or it's just really hard. Like when I've cried, like in the past, like this is just an example. Um, like when I was like sitting in my room one day and I was literally like, Lord, like this walk is so hard with you. Like, how do I trust you? Like, how do I just live this life like hanging on to you, you know? Um, I like I feel like it, like he feels that. You know what I mean? Like when I'm like crying, like that that troubling feeling in your heart that you feel. It's like the Lord feels that, he loves you, and like he feels that. And like it it says, like, I just like wrote here, like how it says, like, Jesus is compassionate, Jesus feels pain, like God cares about our suffering, like whether that be a big suffering, a small suffering, like he cares about that. So when Jesus, like when it like that, like verse has always stuck out to me, like Jesus wept, you know, he's like a passionate, like, you know, God, and um he cares about us and our suffering, and like I know it could be really hard to like just trust him sometimes, but like I feel like sometimes like you he just wants to say, like, just trust me, you know, like what is to come is so much greater than what you have pictured in your tiny little brain.

SPEAKER_00 25:00

I know. I just think of that picture with that little girl, she's holding flowers, yeah, like a tiny little flower, and she's like, I love it. And he has like this giant bouquet behind his back. That's good. I always love that picture.

SPEAKER_01 25:12

I know I do too. Because that's God's plan. It's like so much greater than what we could ever imagine. Yeah, and we always like settle it, we always like limit it.

SPEAKER_00 25:22

So, do you believe God cares about the little things?

unknown 25:26

Of course.

SPEAKER_01 25:28

I'm passionate about that because it's like, yes, he cares about that. Like, this was part of the message last time when I was literally bawling. It was like confirmation. It was like, I care about your favorite color, I care about your favorite candy bar. Like I care about what you want in a marriage. Like, I care about if you're if you want a handsome husband or an ugly husband. Like, do you know what I mean? Sometimes we're like, Lord, am I being too picky? You know, but it's like he obviously knows what's gonna be better, like in a man or in a marriage or in your life, but like he allows you to like to be honest with him and be like, Lord, I kind of want my hand, like I'm gonna be a little handsome. Is that okay? Like, yeah. Sometimes I literally tell him, like, is it okay to be a little cutie pie? Like, you know what I mean?

SPEAKER_00 26:19

When I ask stuff like that, I get worried. I'm like, Am I being too shallow?

SPEAKER_01 26:22

No.

SPEAKER_00 26:22

But I think it's hair, but then I think it's gone. I'm like, he knows exactly what you're attracted to, and he could he could put a little sauce on, like a little bit of something. You know what I'm saying? Like, think about like I think about like Ruth and Boaz. Like she worked in the field and then she owned the field. Like, yeah, because she made you know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_01 26:43

Like, he's like, there's just so much, like we just we limit what limit that, and it's just yeah, but I think it's so like I think he cares. I think he cares, and I think he gets excited when we tell him. So that's why I try to tell I try to like include him now, like as much as I can. So like today I went to Target because I was like, hmm, I want some sunglasses for like the sun. Why would I say that? I don't know. I almost walked out with sunglasses already on the most funny two. But I was literally spent like 15-20 minutes at the sunglass like station thing, and I'm trying different ones, and I'm like, God, like, can you help me pick up my sunglasses? But then it's like, I'm like, I know it sounds silly, but like, can I, you know, can you just please? Yeah. And like, I did find something that I really liked, but I was thinking I'll just like get them like the ones that you put on things. No, I went to Target before I came over with my different one, yeah. Okay, that was um, I didn't think we're gonna go to Target again, but um, yeah, so I was literally talking to him and I'm like, what you like, do you like these? Like, I don't know, I just feel like I was like, I think they're just too big for my face. And then like talking to him, like, you know what I mean? But like I try to like include him because like he cares about that. Like, I think like he gets like really happy, like when we're like, Oh, she's having a little conversation with me, you know. Like, I hear you, daughter, I hear you, you know? That's cute.

SPEAKER_00 28:30

He cares. I like that. So that's a good. Do you ever feel like you put God in a box?

SPEAKER_01 28:35

You can you want to answer that?

SPEAKER_00 28:37

I yeah, I feel like I do. Yeah, I feel like I do. I do too. I think it's just like, you know, when you're like with a person, you're like, oh, they're so busy, like, I don't want to bother them. Yeah. And stuff like that. I feel I forget that God is like God.

unknown 28:53

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 28:53

And He can handle all of it. So when I'm and I don't know who it was, I think it was Desiree when she was like, no, like make it hard. Like, not hard, but make it like detail, like give God something, you know? Things like that. But um, even like for like my future, because I mean I've expressed like desires in my heart of like my career and things that I want to do, but like I just don't know what it would look like, yeah, or how I would get there. You know, like to do ministry or things like that. But um just like the questions, like sometimes I'll be in prayer and I'm like, I don't even know what to ask you. And then um even like how you were saying earlier, like being I get embarrassed to tell God that like his walk this walk is hard. But the more I say it, it's like, well, I I don't think it's supposed to be easy, yeah, you know? So I think just like being bold in those moments with him and just telling him like just being honest, like, yeah, this is really hard, or I don't know how you would do this, you know.

SPEAKER_01 29:55

I kind of like remember it was like this story, I forgot. I think it was like when I think it was like a story in or uh like a verse in Luke where like John had like questioned the Lord, like is it real I think it was like is it really you or something like that? Oh John the Baptist? Yeah, he was like, is this the one we're waiting for? Yes, or something like that, and like kind of got out of like what it says, like um, like where and then Jesus tells him like the healings he's doing. Yeah, yeah. I don't even remember what it was, but it kind of reminded me of like like even like people do doubt the Lord, but like that doesn't bring the Lord into like doubt, I mean panic of like, oh my gosh, like how am I gonna respond? Like, you know?

SPEAKER_00 30:50

And then even like the one because John the Baptist was appointed to like prepare the way for him, and now he's questioning, like, is this this is the guy? Yeah, exactly. You know, I think it's I know I think and I even think like in ministry when pastors like are being vulnerable, like I struggled with this last week. Like our pastor was when he did that announcement about the new building, yeah, he was saying how he did not he basically didn't want to come preach. Like, I don't want to come to church, I didn't want to say anything, but he didn't it was like you were scared, like you to like talk about like seems so excited and have so much enthusiasm, like you didn't want to come, like it was so something about that was so refreshing. So I think of like John the Baptist when he was like like how you're saying, like, hey, this is the guy, right?

SPEAKER_01 31:31

Like, yeah, and it was saying, like, even strong believers doubt, you know, or like they feel like this, or they have questions for the Lord and they seem a little doubtful, but it's like Jesus doesn't panic when you question. Like he already had you know what I mean, like, and I think like sometimes we get the wrong like idea of like, oh, if I ask this question to the Lord, he's gonna get mad at me. Like, I don't think so. No, I don't think he does. Like, I think he he likes us being honest and like curious and and you know, and it's cool because like he answers our prayers in like different ways throughout the day, I feel like, or just little ways. Like, that's why when you when you ask, like, does he do you think he cares about the little things? It's like I think he does because like there's just certain things that he does that like he'll answer, like just something that I ask him or that I share with him, and like even being like very like precise on like what you want, it's like you know that's from the Lord, you know, when it does come. But um, I do put the Lord in the box in a box too. Um, but I try to remind myself that we serve like a really big God.

SPEAKER_00 32:40

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 32:41

Um and yeah, just just um trying to remind myself about that because like we can't limit him, you know? He can do everything and anything, and um, that's why like it kind of reminds me of what I was like reading in Luke yesterday or the day before yesterday, basically saying like be expectant. Oh no, sorry, it wasn't in Luke, it was in Psalms. It was like be expectant of like um, where does it say? I actually have to share this with you because it was really good.

SPEAKER_00 33:16

It was like, hold on, give me a minute. Can you play some elevator music? Here, while you yeah, while you um while you do that, I was gonna say the story you were talking about with John and or with Jesus and John the Baptist. Uh-huh. I love how Jesus responds so gently. He says, he tells John's disciples, because John was in jail. Um, go back to John and tell him what you've seen and heard. The blind see, the lame walk, those with those with leprosy are cured. The deaf can hear, the dead are raised to life. And the good news is being preached to the poor. And then he added, God blesses those who do not fall away because of me. So like his response, he's like, he's not like rude or imp he's patient. Yeah. And he understands, like, okay, maybe John didn't think it was gonna end up this way, and he's about to get his head cut off. Like, he's he wants to know, like, hey, I I did everything. I was like, You're right, right? You know, so that's yeah, I love that. Yeah, see, that's good. That was elevator music. Oh, thank you.

SPEAKER_01 34:14

Perfect music. Um, it says in Psalms 5 3, in the morning, Lord, you hear my voice in the morning. I lay my request before you and wait expectantly. Um, and it's just like we're I wrote, like, we're encouraged to pray and wait with expectant faith. So, um, like how I wrote here, like David starts his prayers in the morning, and it's honest, like they are honest prayers. Yeah. So um, he expects God to listen. Yeah. And it's like expecting, I feel like it's like you know, and you have expecting, I feel like, is like you have the faith that the Lord will hear you. Preparation, yeah. Yeah, and and yeah, so I thought that was good.

SPEAKER_00 35:03

So moving forward, what are some practical things that you can do to expand your boldness to be honest with God?

SPEAKER_01 35:12

Don't think about it too much and just like go into your room, spend that quiet time with the Lord. Guys, I really do think sometimes like we say it because me too. Like, I'll be like, oh yeah, like you know, I took it to the Lord, but it's like sometimes we have to like actively like go and like close my room, go in there, lay down in silence on my knees, and just talk to the Lord. Like, I feel like I don't have too many moments of that. Like, I do a lot of things like with music in the background or like whatever, but like really just silencing everything and like just really taking it like into a room and like just not even thinking about what I'm gonna tell the Lord or how to say it, but just say it. Like being intentional, being intentional, but just just say it. Like say it out loud. You know what I mean? Like, don't think about what you're gonna tell him, how you're gonna say it, like whatever is in your heart, like let it out.

SPEAKER_00 36:07

I pretend like I'm talking to like you or someone, yeah. Like a literal person. I will even um I like to go to like well, literally how the how the Bible says, like, seek wise counsel. I literally go to someone who I know like they've been walking with the Lord for a while, and you know, it they not like a while, like the time matters, but like the experience, like you know, so um and I just like I look for encouragement and just ask like you know, like what do you what do you think and things like that, and I always um get encouraged and I feel like on fire again, and I'm like okay, I can be honest, like it's not you know, because like how you were saying earlier, like the the enemy can sound very loud, yeah, and I think he's just loud. Yeah, he's just he just likes to be loud, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 37:00

So, but yeah, yeah, no, that's good. Um yeah, I mean, just like we all know, we all know opening your Bible that's gonna help. It's gonna help too. But um yeah, like community, um, seeking like that alone time with him, opening your Bible, even just worshiping. Um, even if like you're literally just like in the car listening to music and you just start bawling and being honest with him, like use that time to be honest with the Lord about how you're feeling. Sometimes it's so easy for us to bottle up our our emotions and our feelings, but it's like, no, be honest. He wants you to be honest, use that time to sit there and just dwell on his presence and be like, you know what, Lord, I can't do this without you. I can't, you know. What do you want me to do? What am I doing wrong? How do you want to prepare me to be the person that you want me to be? You know?

SPEAKER_00 37:54

I feel like those moments are so humbling when you realize you're like, oh, I can do I can't do anything without like I can't.

SPEAKER_01 37:58

I cannot. I cannot. Like, I don't if I don't have you on, you know what I mean? Like, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna make it. And it's like, you we've already seen how much the Lord has changed our lives. Like, there's no way like we're going backwards, you know. Just gotta keep moving forward and it's gonna get hard. This path is narrow, you know? It's windy. Yes, and it's windy, it's not easy. It's like so many like things, but it's the best path that you can be on.

SPEAKER_00 38:27

Yeah, it's very rewarding. I was gonna say something else, but I forgot it. Turn the elevator music on again. It's fine, I'll come back. Oh. Um, I know what I was gonna say. Oh, yes. Think of your testimony, yeah. Like reflect on what God has already done and just let that be a reminder, like that he's still working and he's still good.

SPEAKER_01 38:50

Yeah, like let that be a reminder of like all the things that he has fulfilled in your life already. Yeah, that's good. I love it. Wow, that's amazing. Uh I don't know what I just did there, but anyways. Um, was that it? That's all the questions, yeah. That was that was our combo.

SPEAKER_00 39:10

Unless you have anything else to say for encouragement or no, yeah, of course we're gonna end with encouragement.

SPEAKER_01 39:16

Yeah, um, yeah, guys, like this is just us being honest, what we've been learning and stuff like that. Um, but it's always good to seek counsel, don't be shy, don't be scared, um, to go and talk to people about it, to be honest. Sometimes the Lord will um speak through that person to you and um confirm certain things. So just make sure that you guys are just being honest, don't be afraid of the outcome of what whether the Lord is gonna get mad or not. He just wants you to be honest with him. Um, so I encourage you, we encourage you to just be honest with him, be intentional about being honest, and um don't just get up and go after being honest, like do well, and this is something you have to work on too. It's like sit in his presence and try to hear what he's trying to tell you.

SPEAKER_00 40:11

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 40:11

Because a lot of the times I'll literally be like, Lord, I have this, this, this, I have this request, and this is what I mean, this is how I feel. And then I'm like, oh, well, gotta go, you know, and it's like, um, wait, I was just about to tell you, like, you know, yeah, and we can't do that, we can't rush. I think that's one thing that I feel like the Lord has been also telling me is like soak in what you're reading, soak in like what you're reading in the Bible, meditate on that, like, you know, talk to me about what you read in the Bible throughout the day. Yeah, you know, and um I need to work on that, yeah. And I've been yeah, just like usually like read, read, read, but it's like no, I have to like meditate.

SPEAKER_00 40:51

Because the day can get just so busy, so like you forget. Yeah. So it's but yeah. Um I feel like I feel like this is all part of the process. Like the struggle to be honest with God, but I feel like and I feel like this is like what the Lord is saying, like you're doing better than you think you are. So if anyone's watching and you're just really beating yourself up, I I give like that, I bless you with that, what the Lord's saying. You this is all part of the process, and you're doing better than you think you are. Yeah, and God's really proud of you. Just keep being honest, yeah. Keep being honest, and keep walking on that narrow path.

SPEAKER_01 41:30

Yeah, that's good. Mm-hmm. Yeah. All right, we can end in prayer. Yay, all right, Heavenly Father. I just want to thank you for this time together. Just want to thank you so much for your goodness, Lord. Um, thank you for just allowing me to, me and Tatiana to just sit here and and be honest, be vulnerable and and um talk about you, Lord. May you just continue to glorify you and only you. Um, I just want to lift up our listeners, Lord. Whoever's listening, Jesus, I just want to lift them up to you. I pray that you just help them and guide them on how to be honest with you, Lord. If they're struggling with that and they don't know how to bring something to your feet, Jesus, may you just give them that little nudge of that that confirmation that, you know, it's okay to be honest. Yeah. And that um however they bring it to you and lay it at your feet, Lord, that you're gonna be happy with that. Um, and that you will be there listening, Lord. And I just pray that you continue to give confirmation for them. Um you're listening and that you care about the little desires or the little wants in their lives, Lord. That you care about their favorite color, that you care about their favorite food, that you care about what they think and what they feel and how they feel, Lord. Um, and you just continue to remind everyone on the other side of this podcast um that you love them and that you'll continue to choose them. Um, and that although this narrow path can be very, very narrow, you will walk and hold their hand through the entire way, Lord. Um, may they just continue to look up at you and only you, um, no matter how hard or easy this walk gets, may they just continue to speak to you, Lord, and and just come to you through every um heartache, brokenness, emptiness, loneliness that they feel, Lord. And may you just fill them with your joy and your love, Lord. May you just fill them from head to toe, Lord, with all of your peace and your um and your calmness, Lord. Um, and I just pray that you calm any other storms, Jesus, and that you help them walk through it and get out of it because we know that you will. Um, and I just want to pray, head of protection over them, their households, their cars, their health, Lord. Um, may they just continue to seek you and may we continue to always seek and glorify you, Lord, in Jesus' name.

SPEAKER_00 43:49

Amen. Lord Jesus, thank you for dying for me. Thank you for bearing my sins on the cross. I believe that I am a sinner who needs to be saved. Please come into my heart and be the Lord of my life. Life. I give you my heart and my soul and my spirit in Jesus' name. Amen. Amen. We did it. Lo hicimos.

SPEAKER_01 44:09

Lo hicimos. Yeah.

unknown 44:12

What was that?

SPEAKER_01 44:14

It's a Dora Explorer.

SPEAKER_00 44:16

Oh, okay, okay, okay. You used to call me Dora when I was little. Oh my gosh. No way. That's why I like rebuke bangs. I'll never get bangs. You had bangs or what? My mom would always cut them like this. And then I always had a bob.

SPEAKER_01 44:31

My mom would always give me like that bowl haircut, like that cereal bowl haircut.

SPEAKER_00 44:36

Yeah, I'll have to find a picture and show you.

SPEAKER_01 44:38

So embarrassing.

SPEAKER_00 44:39

I was full, I was Dora.

SPEAKER_01 44:41

Ma'am. Oh my gosh, my screensaver, guys. It's like it says, in his time. I knew it said that, but I it really just like. You forgot or what? Yeah, well no, it's here, but like I was like, wait, this is what we're talking about. Trusting God. And obviously trusting God goes in his time, which we'll go with the next episode too, but yeah. Oh, I love it. It's a good reminder for me. I know. So good. Alright, guys. Thank you guys so much for listening to us yap um about just good stuff.

SPEAKER_00 45:14

Yeah, it's honest, it's relatable. We just want to we want you guys to be related, relatable to us. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Feel seen.

SPEAKER_01 45:21

Mm-hmm. Alright, guys. We appreciate you guys listening. We love you guys. Bye.